#sad bc my bathroom buddy isnt around anymore

[abrahamshipwreck]

So stupid but Dove released some holiday scented soaps in bar form and i got the gingerbread spice whatever and hOooooooughmahga I wanna eat it.

[incomparable365]

12/6/24

Ahhh. Yet another post around death. I guess it's just a part of life?

On this day, we lost our sweet anchovy. The sweetest, most adorable lil bby has joined Claudio.

The last few days before it all were very tough. Maybe ill just rewind to when the battle started. It was in July 2024 when we noticed Anchovy wasn't eating, followed by an unbreakable fever that lasted for weeks. Eventually, we found the answer, and things got better. Even then, there was a new norm for you and we all learned how to navigate it together. You were such a champ and easy cat to care for when it came to these things, you took your meds without a fight. Even trialing FIP treatment, it was an easier process than most of the stories we heard.

As things were looking up, we went back to square one with ya not eating again. We found an ulcer and had to get you seen immediately. This time, answers were leaning towards the unfavorable side. Cancer, lympohma, and it all just did not look too good. I'm glad we crossed paths with a great vet at the ER, she laid it all out and helped us understand.

Weds night, we were able to bring you home. We got the living room all cozy for ya, and hung out with you every second. I dont think we left your side ever. I slept on the ground while your mama slept with ya on the couch. We'd wake up periodically to check on ya and admin the meds to keep ya comfy.

Thurs rolls around and this is basically the final full day we have with ya. We made calls to the vet telling them that it was time. They fit us in on Friday w/ Dr. B. A few weeks ago, a neighborhood photographer lost their dog and documented the last moments together. It inspired me to do the same as these moments are important capture. Often times, we just see too much good that no one documents the bad anymore. I'm glad I did it.

This last day with ya buddy was very hard. Life isnt fair at all and im so sad that this life dealt you the cards that it did. You dont deserve it. You were seriously just a baby. A kind, warm, soft, comforting lil dude. You were a weird one but you had a big heart. You loved both of us in your very own unique way, and thats something i'll never forget.

You jumping on my lap at the shelter was such a great thing to have happened. When we brought you home, it was like you already lived here. You integrated so well. You even were cool with hanging in the bathroom a few days as you got adjusted. The rest is history, but i'd definitely like to reflect so I dont forget the small details.

At the start, having ya in my life was different, in a good way. We were so use to all the things that claudio would do and with ya, ya did things so differently. Its funny that sometimes when you wouldn't come to bed, I'd just bring you over, and you'd be like ok, this is cool. Lizzy always pointed out so many similarities we both shared. Retrieval service is kinda similar to me in a way. I see it as ok, this is cool, it works, i'll go with the flow, which is quite similar to how I am at times. Your aura, energy, demeanor, and whatever, it was just calm, chill, and very grounding. Just like myself id like to think.

You were definitely different, as I've never met a cat that goes crazy over dry food and mangoes like you do. We'd call ya a tropical boi bc what cat eats mangoes lmao.

Sometimes in my life, things got hectic, stressful, and you were always there as a reminder that its ok to slow down and just chill. You were great at being such a chill dude. I think the cutest thing I remembered recently is during friendsgiving and how you were just out making rounds saying hi to everyone. You were just a part of all the lil circles and convos as if you were participating in the convo too. It was beyond cute to see. Everyone loved you man, all the homies coming over to sit ya, all the vets and staff too.

We fought really hard for ya man and did everything we could to ensure you had the greatest life. I know that adopting you was the best choice and I hope that we will meet again soon. You were so loved and I want to say thanks for being such a great and easy cat to love. You've set the bar high and no one will ever match ya bc everyone will be unique in their own ways. You've shown that to me and for that, I am super grateful to have been one of your humans.

I love ya lil anchovy pizza and thank you for everything. Physically you're not here anymore, it's painful and sad, but I know when the time is right, we will meet again. I can show you the tattoo I got whenever I see ya next. Until then, take care, no more cat fights, eat lots of mangoes, and dry food for us.

Love,

Your other mama <3

PS: this is something I saw long ago when claudio passed and it was sent to me by one of my friends responding to my story about ya anchovy. It's a beautiful poem about the rainbow bridge. It brings me comfort that we will meet again.